Take a risk.
Posted by: selsel on: January 23, 2010
I took one. On 13 January 2010, I tendered my resignation.
My boss took it exactly the way I thought he would, so it was more or less expected.
I’m worried about my future.
What would I do with my life? What would I do with my MBA? What’s going to happen next?
When I was young, I had a recurring nightmare.
I dreamt I was an ant. Carrying a huge rock.
Well, it’s kinda coming true right now, ain’t it?
But let’s not rush into things, take one baby step at a time. Going back to my Dad has always been like escaping to a refuge camp. It happens when I’m no longer happy with where I am right now or when I desperately want a change.
Although this time, it is distinctively different. I feel I have so much more to give and so much more to gain.
Seeing how things run in another company has helped me to know what and how I would want to run my own company.
IT systems, work processes, administration, human-relations, etc.
Things I would not have seen, had I started there right from the beginning.
I’m thankful for the experience, for the friendships and for the invaluable lessons I have learnt there.
The risk that I’m taking, which includes, mainly giving up a comfortable salary, having the luxury of 38 (wo)manpower, having my own office, funds to use to buy the latest equipment for the office.
It’s quite a big risk, considering that I have a higher fixed expense now as compared to 3 years ago.
Stepping out of my comfort zone, going into uncharted territories scare the shit out of me.
What if I can’t cope? What if I can’t bring in the business? What if my systems fail? What if I fail?
I’m really worried.
If I fail, I’d be letting down my father.
The consequences of failing are too great to bear. I don’t even want to think about it.
Right. Should go do my OB report now.