Posted by: selsel on: February 26, 2010
Posted by: selsel on: January 23, 2010
I took one. On 13 January 2010, I tendered my resignation.
My boss took it exactly the way I thought he would, so it was more or less expected.
I’m worried about my future.
What would I do with my life? What would I do with my MBA? What’s going to happen next?
When I was young, I had a recurring nightmare.
I dreamt I was an ant. Carrying a huge rock.
Well, it’s kinda coming true right now, ain’t it?
But let’s not rush into things, take one baby step at a time. Going back to my Dad has always been like escaping to a refuge camp. It happens when I’m no longer happy with where I am right now or when I desperately want a change.
Although this time, it is distinctively different. I feel I have so much more to give and so much more to gain.
Seeing how things run in another company has helped me to know what and how I would want to run my own company.
IT systems, work processes, administration, human-relations, etc.
Things I would not have seen, had I started there right from the beginning.
I’m thankful for the experience, for the friendships and for the invaluable lessons I have learnt there.
The risk that I’m taking, which includes, mainly giving up a comfortable salary, having the luxury of 38 (wo)manpower, having my own office, funds to use to buy the latest equipment for the office.
It’s quite a big risk, considering that I have a higher fixed expense now as compared to 3 years ago.
Stepping out of my comfort zone, going into uncharted territories scare the shit out of me.
What if I can’t cope? What if I can’t bring in the business? What if my systems fail? What if I fail?
I’m really worried.
If I fail, I’d be letting down my father.
The consequences of failing are too great to bear. I don’t even want to think about it.
Right. Should go do my OB report now.
Posted by: selsel on: January 20, 2010
Posted by: selsel on: January 17, 2010
It’s annoying. Honestly. I hate it when people talk to me and they go “… Actually I wanted to tell you, but..”
It makes me feel like a fool.
Just this afternoon, at training, I told the girls, look you have the luxury of asking questions. So ask!
But somehow people don’t tell you when you ask. Only after something happens, then everything comes pouring out.
Seriously. What’s the deal?
But then again, I have lots if secrets that I don’t tell. Duh they’re called secrets for a reason.
Although I really hate people keeping things from me. You either keep it from me till the day you die and not let me find out, or you jolly well come clean with me.
Either way, you choose.
Ok that’s all. Kthanksbye.
Posted by: selsel on: January 15, 2010
This place is really growing cobwebs, yes?
It’s been so long, I think I forgot my password. Only managed to log in after erm several tries.
How’s 2010 been treating you guys so far?
2009 has just left, traces of it still remains.
I really don’t know what to write here anymore.
I don’t want to recap 2009, nothing spectacular. Plenty of wrong decisions I made.
I’m just happy that I survived it, injured, but pretty much alive.
I thank my friends who have stuck through me through thick and thin. Seriously, without them, I would have died.
I thank my parents, for their harsh words but unconditional love. My mum for sharing, my dad for accomodating.
Really. I’m so grateful.
2010 will be a great year yes?
I’ve tendered my resignation, sorry Boss. But my responsibilities as a daughter are greater than as an employee.
I hope I’ve been of help these last 3 years. You’re a great Boss, and I’m sorry I can’t continue on.
I’ll miss all my girls, colleagues, my BFFs, you girls won’t be 4 numbers away anymore. Thinking about leaving you all just makes me sad and teary all over again.
But some people just don’t understand that I’m sad about leaving too.
Oh, and good news within the first week of 2010! I won myself a lucky draw prize! Woohoo!
Plus, I passed EMS! Woohoo! (That’s cause for celebration already!)
That’s an awesome start to the new year, ain’t it?
I don’t have any resolutions this year, I don’t want to break ‘em.
We’ll just see where the roads lead me to..
In the meantime, stay healthy and happy, folks!
Posted by: selsel on: December 15, 2009
I am not rich.
Ok, my dad may have a little more money than some. But we’re definitely not rich.
So, some circumstances aren’t helping.
Terrace house, is horribly underpriced now, so we can’t sell it.
Big car, is purely for face-issues. He can’t bear to be looked down upon.
And that’s all.
On what grounds do you say I’m rich?
Boo. I am not.
Especially when the gahment gives me only $100 while others get $200 – $400.
It’s terribly unfair.
I need GST reliefs too, you know. I’m just an average white collar worker. Struggling by a miserly amount of pay.
Why do I only get $100!?
I’m just misunderstood because people have all sorts of misconceptions about me.
Posted by: selsel on: December 15, 2009
Yeah. Because it doesn’t freakin’ let me pay!
So I ordered some stuff from TW Yahoo Auctions, and this seller accepts Paypal payments for overseas buyers. I’ve been trying for a whole effin’ week now, to pay using Paypal.
First, there’s been a gazillion changes in Paypal, I haven’t used it for YEARS. After ploughing through all the updating and adding crap, I still can’t pay!
I need to confirm and link my card or something. Blody Amex doesn’t work! -_-”
So I had to add another card, Mastercard, yes? So it says I have to confirm and link (again!) but I’ve yet to receive the transaction on my bank statement.
Clicking around, I managed to pay using the Mastercard! Erm, I thought I was supposed to confirm and link it? No?
So now it says my payment has been sent. But I don’t know if my payment has been sent.
Apple hasn’t sent me a replacement Mac for the faulty screechin’ one yet, it’s been a whole effin’ week! Ok, I should really stop swearing.
And my Dermalogica products have not arrived! Ok, lots of Christmas items to ship, yes, ok. So how long more do I have to wait?
*sulks in one corner*
Posted by: selsel on: December 13, 2009
Watched Broadway Beng on Friday with the gang at Esplanade. It was s0-so only. A tiny bit disappointing as I was expecting something funnier. Maybe because I’ve watched him before when he was at Drama Centre.
That was way funnier than this one. Oh wells. I gotta say tho’, that guy’s got guts wearing a durian shell helmet and thorny green spandex suits. Heh.
But I can safely say, no more Broadway Beng for me. That’s if he intends to have another episode! Not because he’s no good, but because it’s a bit lao hong for me alreadeh.
Up next, is Amit Live! Woohoo! A*mei the queen is coming to town next month! Which is technically next year, since it’ll be 2010 already!
Exciting! Can’t wait! All the songs she’ll be singing are favourites and all her hits! Whoopee!
I also, also, also want to watch Chicago. I watched the movie version (Richard Gere, Renee Zellweger and Catherine Zeta-Jones) and I loved it!
But the tickets are awfully pricey. And there is no concession price for any credit cards at all! Not even OCBC. Gah.
Now, if only I could watch them all at Broadway itself.
Ok, that’s way impossible. Boo.
I have impossibly many Christmas presents to buy and I have not started at all.
Removed my lash extensions (horribly done, if I must add) and will be trying out a new type of extensions that goes strand by strand instead of a bunch!
Woohoo! Can’t wait!
Ok it’s almost 6am. I need to sleep.
Posted by: selsel on: December 1, 2009
The Mac’s ordered! Woohoo!
Posted by: selsel on: November 30, 2009
So you’ve heard about my terrible experience at Milly’s with the eyelash extensions. But you’ve not seen it!
This is like the 3rd attempt and the last freaking time I’m going back to fix it. Damn it.
That aside, it actually looks quite nice, although face washing is slightly tiresome.
Time to hit the books! Economics will kill me. Ciao!
Posted by: selsel on: November 28, 2009
I know lah! I’ve said this a million times so I ain’t going to say it again!
I’ve accomplished much these last 10 days.
I did eyelash extensions. Extremely pissed off with the blody shop, Milly’s at FEP. Since last Sunday, I’ve been back the 2nd time and I’m going there again tomorrow!
The first attempt was absolutely terrible. I looked like a blody tranny!!!!
It was so damn long, the extensions nearly touched my eyebrows. Oh so damn blody pissed!
So I went back, the 2nd time, on the 2nd day of the extensions to get them to blody fix it!
After that, it was ok for a while, like 6 hours, before extensions on the outside corner of my left eye detached themselves from my eyelid. Like, all 3 bunches of them.
So I’m going back again tomorrow. To get them to fix it for the 3rd effin’ time, and it’s the last freaking time I’m going back there before I lose it altogether.
It. Will. Not. Be. Pleasant.
Went to JB today, braved the 2 hours jam in and those annoying buggers who cut our queues, you will fall into a drain and step on dog poo when you wear your new shoes out for the first time, every single pair of them.
This old uncle even tried to validate and justify for his cutting queue by saying, “Oh, I’m old, my legs cramp, you all are young, can take it.”
You know what, do I look like I care?
Being old and having crampy legs does not give you a right to “automatically” cut queue.
If you’d asked, I’d give it to you.
You just took it for granted that we’d let you, just ’cause you’re old? Come on. It’s everyone for himself (or herself, in this place).
I have 2 new tops and a she-boxer (female version boxers) and 2 pairs of shoes. Whoopee! It was gonna be 4 pairs, but I managed to exercise refrain *smirk*. Partly also because I’m going to Taipei in Feb 2010, heh heh.
Ordered my first batch of Dermalogica items from Whatgreatskin.com! Yay-ness!
I hope the shipping charges won’t kill me.
Oh, chickened out at Hermes, I don’t know what’s so difficult about buying a Twilly. But I chickened out. Embarrassing, yes, I know. Thanks for informing.
I realised I have not posted photos of my birthday party, Zhenting’s birthday party, Karen’s, Mich’s, Lion’s, Melvin’s, the Bangkok trip, ok basically everything.
But they’re all on Facebook, ok! Seriously, all of them.
Ok, I’m bummed. Econs exam in 7 days. The clock is ticking, you guys.
Siglap Community Day at Marina Barrage tomorrow! I pray it does not rain.
Posted by: selsel on: November 15, 2009
Because I only started playing the Macdonald’s Monopoly game yesterday! Haha. But I think I’ve caught up with everyone else already, judging by the posts in the forums of rare pieces yet to be released.
Bought lunch yesterday from Mac’s and got 8 coupons! Was not very interested in the beginning after seeing the (much overplayed) advertisements of those 2 crazy women jumping around outside Mac’s.
Until yesterday. I am one coupon short of getting my 10,000 Smiles points, $400 Jetstar voucher and 32GB iPod Touch! And not to mention one Sentosa Cove away from getting the $50,000 cash.
Darn it. It’s so exciting! Hahaha.
Although apparently there is only ONE of the Sentosa Cove coupon and 20 of Thomson Road (number of coupons corresponds with the number of prizes for that category, it seems).
Shitified. Hahaha and I need Joo Chiat! So far, 7 of the iPods have been won! Which means there are only 43 left!
I ish going to rally Karen and Ting and everyone else to play! Hahaha, it’s quite exciting, yes?
Get your gameboard and start collecting man!
Posted by: selsel on: October 31, 2009
Watched the show on Wednesday with the girls and cried buckets.
The movie was so much better than the book (although the reviews on GV.com.sg said otherwise). Personally, I’ve read the book and watched the movie. I prefer the movie.
The book was a bit dry, I read it like last year and I’ve already forgotten the ending. Until Ting told me that the movie ending was different from the book ending.
But it’s still good, very touching and very heart wrenching. A mother who doesn’t want to give up fighting and a daughter who has had enough. The sister who tries to help but shoulders the hurt and pain on herself.
The brother is the worst off, in this situation, being the middle child. Completely neglected and feeling totally helpless.
Sigh. Extremely sad.
Go watch it, but bring lots of tissues and don’t be afraid to sob.
Because others will be sobbing with you.
Posted by: selsel on: October 26, 2009
I want to kick myself.
Plus the guy couldn’t jailbreak the pod. Bummer. No Hello Kitty theme.
Seriously think my brain engines need to be jump started.
I’m still not in the study mode.
Perhaps setting up a study room will help. I’ve taken over the 3rd room on the 3rd floor. Technically, I have 3 rooms now. But my previous study room has dilapidated. Woh, I have spell-check. Hahaha.
Yes, I was saying, my previous study room has dilapidated over the 3 years that I haven’t been studying. Oops. It has become a storeroom of sorts. Old clothes, old books, old files, old textbooks, my army of soft toys. Seriously, what should I do with them?
Some have sentimental values, of course. But most are just collecting dust anyway.
Even charity places don’t want them. Meh.
See, I wasn’t joking.
Boxes of clothes, that’s just one side of it and my study desk (bought 13 years ago when I first moved in, don’t judge me!!) chock full of notes from Poly times till Degree. It’s a crazy amount of papers.
Could kill someone with all that weight.
So I’m setting up the study at the room next to the old one. We used to rent it out, but it’s been vacant for a while now, after the tenant went back to M’sia.
Got bored while studying (ended up screwing it up anyway) and JJ came up to visit me.
That’s him in his new “home”. Penthouse ok, it’s the topmost shelf.
Sigh, I’m extremely upset about my test. Bah.
Oh wells, try harder next time. The next hurdle is the group assignment, imma so getting my 30%!!
And on the bright side, Dad says he’s part-sponsoring my iMac! I think he said $1500.
Ok, hopefully I’ll feel more inspired to study soon.
Posted by: selsel on: October 23, 2009
I promise I will buy this if it’s still available when I get my bonus!
Oh and that’s provided I get my size. Shall not compromise on the size. Even if it’s HALF a size smaller.
No, uh-uh. Not worth it.
Wheee! Doesn’t it look just yummy!!! I feel happy just looking at it.
And it’s for a good cause too! Wow! I’m so excited!
Posted by: selsel on: October 23, 2009
Still drowning in my econs notes. But amidst the reading of demand and supply, market structures, marginal costs, law of diminishing returns, I’ve been daydreaming.
I made up a list of things I want to buy.
Not surprising, I’ve made this kind of lists before. Always! Just so that I don’t forget and I don’t get distracted to buy other things not within the list.
1. LeSportSac’s Drew backpack is ultimately adorable. I wonder if they sell these in Bangkok. Isetan’s having a 30% sale now on this brand. I must go on Sunday after school. To reward myself, if I did well in my test and to console myself, if I totally screwed up. Meh.
I saw these at Guangzhou Baiyun Int’l Airport, going for close to $200. Damn, why did I have such great self-restraint. If they don’t have this in Isetan, I’m so going to kick myself. *cross fingers*
2. Apple iMac 21.5″, $1788
The final stage of my Apple-fication process. You may ask, what about the iPhone to complete the package? No, I’m not getting the iPhone, that’s just a useless piece of metal. Pretty, yes, but I don’t think it’s that great a phone.
The iMac, on the other hand, is a fantastic piece of machine. Sleek and chic, with a wireless keyboard and the Mighty Mouse! Whoopee!
Plus the fact that I”m completely smitten with the Photobooth function thing.
Taken at Epicentre@Wheelock then frantically trying to find the file and send it via email to myself.
3. Hermes H-our watch, Regular in orange calfskin
This is my ultimate dream, it’s a good $1000 cheaper at the Guangzhou airport. Damn the self-restraint! Argh! I had it on my wrist for 5mins, as if convincing myself to just buy it!
4. Pink Swarovski Varinas for Breast Cancer Foundation
Now, now, I know I already have a pair of silver Varinas, but this, this, this pair of gems is PINK AND CRYSTAL STUDDED! How can I not fall in love with it? How?!
5. Ayurveda Spa session at Amrita Spa and Wellness
6. Instax Mini 25 Hello Kitty Edition
I want this just because! Because it’s Hello Kitty and because polaroid cameras are so fun!
Ok, that’s all. I think I spent too much time here. I should get back to drowning in economics. Competitive advantage and whatnots.
I’m outta here.
Here is my remedy, remedy, uh!
Posted by: selsel on: October 16, 2009
Hellooooooooooo I love wifi! Haha, am at the Canton Fair, my legs are breaking and I’m dying of thirst.
Can’t access Facebook and Gmail though. Odd.
Lunch was sucky, I had salty rice. Meh.
Ok, I’m off!
Posted by: selsel on: October 14, 2009
One more day to Guangzhou!
Am bringing ALL of my Econs reading there. Sian or not.
The mini’s going too, in hope that I’ll actually find Wifi somewhere out there in Guangzhou.
Bringing my “act-pro” camera too, oh, which reminds me, photos of The Regular’s birthday party are still inside.
Okay, I promise I will upload before I fly off (done!).
And also did I mention I chickened out at the blood donation drive.
I’m such a chicken.
Well, the bright side is I found a lot of willing parties to go blood donating with me.
Together we bleed!
Hotel room booked for BKK! Citadines Soi 8 looks pretty cool!
I’m getting really excited about BKK, hee hee.
Ok I’m off.
Posted by: selsel on: October 7, 2009
MBA’s started. Classes are not intensive, but gosh, I’ve got a thick stack of reading to go through. And those are just materials that the lecturer gave.
There are more! Those that he “advised” us to read. Meaning must go and read lah.
I’m really on an extremely steep learning curve right now. And it’s driving me crazy.
I’ve got no energy to read anymore after work and weekends are so precious I just don’t think I should be spending my 1-day weekend reading on demand & supply, competitive markets and I seriously don’t want to know what Obama is doing about the US economy.
On a happier note, I bought a new camera and an iPod Touch! I’ve officially joined the Mac-lover club. Next on the list is the iMac! Wheee!
The Touch’s great! But I’m still waiting for that salesman to download the Hello Kitty theme for me though.
He hasn’t got back to me. Bah. Them salespeople just want to close the deal and forget all about the after-sales service.
On another happier note, Guangzhou’s in 9 (woohoo) days! That’s about slightly more than a week! I can’t wait to get out of here. Bangkok’s in 25 (not so woohoo) days!
Ahhhhh, Land of Mango with Sticky Rice, I’m cominggggggg!
On a not so happy note, the assignment is due in blody 1 month. Class test’s even sooner, 25th! Damn.
I really hope I survive this. Gah.
Somebody, save me!!!